This Needs To Stop (Small Rant)

There was a bombing in Brussels. I'm sure a lot of you guys have heard already. If anyone lives there or lives near there, I hope you're alright. Please be safe. To anyone who lost someone, or who's friend/family member was injured, my thoughts go out to you...


This...this really needs to stop. I suppose I should have a warning in advance for my language. I normally try to keep my swearing to a minimum, but I'm just...angry.

What the fuck is wrong with us...?

Aren't there enough world problems? Don't we have enough people starving, poor, without shelter or support, with depression, with diseases, without happiness, dying slowly...isn't there enough suffering already?

Apparently not. Apparently we have to drag more fucking heart ache into this. Apparently we have to torture ourselves even more.

The worst part about this is, I don't feel surprised. I'm not shocked, I'm not even really sad...I'm just angry. Frustrated. There's nothing I can do to help. I'm living in the US, and it's a bright sunny fucking day outside, and people are suffering and there's nothing I can do...there's nothing I will do. That's what I hate about myself right now. I'm one of those bystanders, watching and hearing about this, but not doing anything to really help. I'll just continue my life because...well, it doesn't directly impact me...yet.


I wish I wasn't...wishing death on them right now. On Isis. We all know they're likely the ones responsible, right? This is just another thing to do with their fucking religion. Kill the nonbelievers! Spread panic and fear! For what? Uh...we forgot. Just kill them, it's what our god told us to do! Never mind the lives those people had! Never mind the potential they had and the loved ones who care about them! JUST FUCKING KILL THEM! BLOW YOURSELF UP IF YOU HAVE TO!
....fanatics...fucking fanatics. They're everything that's wrong with belief. I try hard to avoid wishing death on people. But I can't help it. I want them to vanish, to just keel over...but I guess that wouldn't really help. Another group would take their place. Because we're so addicted to causing ourselves pain.

I should explain...for a while now, I've kind of adopted this way of thinking about the human race. All of us, every single human, makes up one huge person. Each of us are just a thought, an emotion, in that giant person's head, and all of our actions contribute to how they think, feel, act and move. Remember the movie Inside Out? It's a bit like that...but darker. You see, the human race is still really really young. This giant person isn't any older than 14. They're a teenager, they're still figuring things out. They still have a desire to live and they still have dreams...but they're plagued with depression. And that depression is us. We hurt each other for stupid reasons and end up hurting ourselves. That giant person has made a few suicide attempts...they've failed so far, but it seems they've set the groundwork for more attempts in the future. So unless we get our shit together and stop causing ourselves pain, one of those attempts will succeed, and we're gone sooner than our time. 


I really...wish I could gather my thoughts...and say more....but I can't. Focusing on these negative things is just...useless. I'm only going to bring myself, and you guys, down. Something terrible just happened. People are dead when they shouldn't be...but we all need to...to move on. We can be angry and sad all we like, just so long as we don't stop ourselves from living. This too shall pass, right?

I'm sorry for the rant...just had to let it out. 

Edit: Hey guys...just a bit of a reminder...there's still some good in us.  Inspiration of the Week (IOW)After my rant in my last journal, I went looking for something to remind myself of the things I like about Humans...and this clip really helps.
"Isn't it remarkable, Steven? This world is full of so many possibilities...Each living thing has an entirely unique experience. The sights they see, the sounds they hear, the lives they live...are so complicated, and so simple. I can't wait for you to join them..."
Listen, we suck. Humans...humans do a lot of stupid, terrible, awful things...but there are pros and cons to everything, and we should never let the bad outweigh the good. It's all balance, and as much as I hate humans...I can't deny that we are capable of some pretty awesome things too. Sometimes I love the human race. Sometimes I love being Human...other times (like this morning), I can barely stand it.
I mentioned that the human race makes up one giant person. Well, that person is innovative, imaginative, capable of creating and dreaming things that are just so incredible...don't

Mood: Exhausted.
Eating: Breakfast
Listening to: Heaven's Not Enough - Yoko Kanno
Thinking: .............