This is hard to say...

So, lately I've been coming to more and more of a realization, and I was kind of afraid to admit to myself and to you guys that this was happening...I suppose it was always inevitable. Heh.

Anyway, what I've realized is that...I don't have...any interest in Warriors anymore... I've tried to draw scenes from it, tried to reread it, but it just...my mind is blank now. I start drawing a scene, and I can't finish it. I never finish it.

I suppose I'm just...sick of cats. Heh...maybe that was obvious. I try to put as much effort as I can into your guys' commissions, because people pay a lot for it and you all enjoy my cat art...I want to make you all happy because you are an amazing audience, you're all so freaking supportive, but at the same time...drawing cats just doesn't make me excited anymore. I used to be able to draw a scene and smile at it, feel proud that I drew that scene. Now I'm...kind of ashamed of my warrior cats drawings. I mean, whenever I draw something else (like the day/night owl, or the lizard), everyone around me, my family and irl friends, all think it's great, and I even start to feel like showing my art to everyone I know...but my cats are just kind of...there. I didn't want to admit that, but it's true.

Now listen, don't freak out. I wouldn't just suddenly abandon this whole account and stuff. But know that I'm not exactly a part of Warriors anymore... I want to draw and post other things. I want to move on, draw scenes from my favorite shows, books and movies...I want to develop beyond cats so badly, and in order to do that I've gotta stop pretending that I'm interested in cats anymore.

I suppose that's what this is really about: the future of this account. For years it's been a Warriors account...but that's not what this is going to be anymore. This is just an art account, and I'm posting things other than cats.

Oh I assure you I will be drawing warriors related scenes. After all, I don't plan to completely stop taking commissions (and most all of my commissions are warriors things), but whenever I have free time, it will be spent on things that I truly care about...and that's not really warriors anymore...

I hope you guys understand this...no, I know you'll understand. You all are flipping amazing and mature...you've handled a lot of kind of questionable things I've posted with an incredible amount of respect...

But if you watch me only for Warriors...then this account may not be as interesting to you anymore.

~River

Mood: Determined.
Thinking about: How the heck do I tell my youtube subscribers...? They don't seem nearly as, err...mature. O.O ;-;